This weekend has been all about ‘choices’. Making the choice to enjoy myself is something I need to remember. The ‘intensity’ of Wednesday is still there, and I had to directly face it tonight.
That meant dinner out. I was pretty tense and nervous in the preparation but it felt like all was ‘normal’ though the intensity hasn’t gone away.  After it was over, I did something I find very difficult relating to this specific ‘intensity’: I asked for support. This meant calling one of my friends who knows the details about the intensity.  That friend was busy and already had plans to go dancing. That was tough because most people don’t know the ‘intensity’ story and those other people who do were unavailable.  So, I did some thinking and realized that A) friend didn’t get the message I’d left earlier B) that I had to suck it up and meet my needs — which was to be busy and around friends — and invite myself into the GASP. Carpool. Yes that’s right a dancing, mini roadtrip. AND it meant I invited myself along, which is something I generally DON’T do, as I don’t want to impose where it may not be welcome (they also may not care, but one never knows).
I’m glad I did take the risk. I would have been a mess at home and dancing was great again tonight. Sometimes, it is all about choosing to have a good time. I was in a bad place when I arrived to the dance, so I took a walk, did some thinking and cleared my head. I had a fun relaxing night. Some more uptempo songs, yummy blues (sigh…), fun lindy hop and more bonding with another follow who I haven’t really known extremely well in the past but who I think could become a good friend (and who’s dancing I greatly admire).
So now I’m home, after running out the door of the dance, because my carpool was literally driving away (but yummy blues was worth it). GRIN.  And it is time to sleep, but first some organizing for work early early in the morning. But first, I’m going to load a song that’s been in my head since the Seattle Trip. I apologize to my faithful readers if sound is not welcome, but I want to try the feature. Maybe this will induce more than One in 36 Million to comment (you don’t have to have a blog here to comment). So feedback please: the occasional media or no??
WAIT. I thought I could add audio, but apparently clicking on the music notes didn’t work. Does anyone know how to upload audio to this blog? Oh well… would have expressed some of where I’m at, quite well…